im the weak one there is nothing wrong with you u have never done anything wrong never its me the problem is me im sorry it ended like this i do still love u and i mean it just... things are complicated now.. hope u understand thanks for the memories
Nur Liyana Amera Mazlan.the first girl that has ever given me so much love.appreciated me.trusted me.you've stolen my heart.and its forever yours.
since early last year,u have loved me non stop. i myself,aint that perfect. im not that kind. not that adorable. not that hot. everything thats nice, im simply not. but you. you're perfect. the way you smile and the way u talk. the way u giggle and the way walk. the way ur mouth is when ur sad. the way you hold me tight when ur feeling bad. you. you. you. theres just too much to say about you ! and non of it is negative.
baby,i really hope this sweet and unbreakable relationship will maintain and stay strong. baby,i apologize for everything ive done to you.and i mean EVERYTHING. i have to admit,im crying. hmmmm... i cant stop these tears from dripping out. they just keep flowing out and out. you to me are everything ! youre the stars that brighten my night. you make me smile and laugh like im some kind of freak ! but inside,only i know that its your love thats making me feel so.....amazing. ur amazing !
i sayang you dari mula. till now. and forever.
i called you,i cried. i couldnt stop. i didnt care how it made me sound like.. i dont ! i want you to know that this heart inside of me,is urs for the taking..
"jangan kau bimbang sayang, dimana ku berada, dengan siapa ku bersama, jangan bimbang, ku tetap kau yg punya."
those lyrics are just quite simple to get rite? syg,trust me ok =) like i trust you..
"i dont wanna close my eyes, i dont wanna fall asleep, cause i miss you baby, and i dont wanna miss a thing."
those are the lyrics which tell you how i feel rite now. i dont wanna sleep. i dont wanna go. i just wanna stay here,the way i am rite now.home. i just wanna be with u laa ! thats it ! with u !
its been 18 years now.you guys have given everything to me. provided me everything.from food to shelter. from shelter to knowledge. from knowledge to LOVE. and it goes on and on without stopping.since i was a a little kid growing up,u guys have shown me n given me so much love.you told me i was the greatest there is. u guys told me how clever i am even though im not.u guys told me how adorable i looked when i was growing up.how easy it was raising me.i just..aaaaaaaaa... dont know how to say it in words.but i really appreciate everything ive been given.now,its my time to live on my own.i hope you all will trust me and support me =)ok?mama,ur the best mom there is. ur everything a son could ever dream of having.uve given me so much support from the beginning.u told me never to give up. u told me u love me,and i believe you. cause i do to..i love you.please forgive me for everything ive done.ive caused u a lot of trouble.ive done so many things to hurt you,yet..uve always stayed by my side.thanks mama.i swear ill take care of myself.ill pray for you,ill try to be a better person.dont you worry ok?im always here.always for you.u know ive always have your back in anything.nobody can ever replace u,i swear to God that i really LOVE YOU !abah,faris minta maaf. i know even though u have been strict to me since i was young,deep inside of you,i know that u love me.that u love this family so much.ur trying so hard to support this family.u being strict have always been the main reason why i am,the person i am now.why im strong inside.mentally and physically.thank you.afiq and wahida,korang jgn nakal ! korang help mama n abah around the house when im not around.ok?study ! jgn buat mama n abah mara taw?dont be stubborn like i am !dont !
wondering what the hell ' The Flibbertigibbet's ' are ? well, a 'flibbertigibbet' is a silly, gossipy person. got that from the dictionary. correct me if im wrong. so basically that is a quite big word yet almost accurate in letting you know who we are =)
so,right here, i would like to say a couple of things before i leave for uitm,which is tomorrow. im sorry for being such a dick,bastard,celaka,fucker,buto..hhahahaha.or watever it is i am. im sorry dudes =) forgive me,and all my mistakes. all that ive done,is truly who i am. so if its bad or good,its still who i am. being with you all for the last 2 and a half years was a BOMB ! serious shit..i didnt ever think i would be such an active person like who i am now. i proudly say i aint matured yet ! hahaha and so are u guys doww.. theres too much sweet n bitter memories between us. the fights we fought. how we backed each other up no matter what. too much.
take care of yourself aite. try NOT to be so sad all the time. and i mean it ! ALL THE TIME ! cheer up brotha ! uve still got years ahead of u,dont be regretfull of anyting. u wanna join OIAM ? haha.go for it ! u win,u get a money.its split between us.aite?haha you a lot of my secrets,thats hot important and trustfull i am towards you.. dont let no body push u around,ur tougher then u look. dont let no body stand in ur way,fite back..
btw,aku impressed and proud of you dow.cekap bwk manual dh.haha
si telinga capang ! si cur....err....nothing ! aint suppose to say it in public. yall know what i mean rite?hahaha u gotta stay the way you are now. i gotta admit something dow.. even tho ive known u quite lonnggg... ur still quite mysterious to me,its hard to say why.but you are.haha we've been a team since the day we started school. then neighbors. to team mates.haha we've been through a lot ! oh yeah,take care of my xmen dvd's maynee ! ill want em back when i get home.haha keep collecting those psp games,we still gotta trade each other for games.
my 'dark side' my friend.haha. my heavy metal, death metal friend ! haaha thanks a lot for everything. all the rides to school,to work. counter strike-ing together.haha its been a blast ! eventhough aku still bengang cs kau xd kuar ngan aku lngsng g kl ke apeeee.haha
tp still,uve made up by hanging wit me at the bistro,cc,karaoke and ftsal.haha
my nigger ! haha hows life dude? hows matrix? missing us brothers back in nilai? cs we sure are...haha look im going as well,further then u !haha but that dont mean we gotta break this frenship we got,we still meet up =) bistro,wathing football.haha btw,sorry for causing you lotta trouble,ejek2 kau..seriously sorry.. i wanna stop,but 'that' kid keep tempting me in for more ! haha u know who? =P so keep in touch,n keep that love of yours horny wei !hahaha xdee aaaa .saje jeee.haha sorry again
ok,the famous and legendary Fikri.haha the one and only 'HOTSTUFF' in the groupp.haha the clown that makes us laugh all the time... the one that brightens up everyones day.. oh,no2..u bright up our day,but not the guy ur teasing and dissing.haha u deserve to be called 'King Flibbertigibbet' hahahahaha thanks for everything wei,aku syg gile kt kau ! after this i aint gonna bother u.haha u can go jog or jerk off anytime now ! theres no 'zet' to come buzzing of ur house anymore.haha you brotha,no matter how 'Hot' you,please im begging you ! dont turn ur back on me,on us ! ur too valuable to be lost.same goes to all of yall ! aite? dont got no where dude.stay with us.
even tho at the last minute we got close,uve still been a lot of fun to be with dow.serious shit ! even though kau kene bahan ngan bulat bnyk,kau still stayed strong and tough ! i respect ya ! haha next time,we'll hangout again.jgn x ikut wei ! kau penting ! in a lotttt of ways.hahahha
btw.sorry for the nigger slang that i write in.eh? dh terbiasa dow=)
alotta places actually. haha. u'll find out by reading this entry..aite?
here we go.....
we planned on sunday to go out,since its my last week as an unemployed,jobless yet with a quite bright future i can say . haha bulat wanted to go to the library. the library next to Dataran Merdeka. i dont remember the formal name for it tho.sorry.haha then i wanted to go shop some stuff for uitm. bag,shirts etc. but i actually planned to go shop for these things with Leeya,but then..she's got mid year exams..night tuitions... so..babe,sorry sngt2..i know how terribly sad u are..i know,im super duper sorry sayangg.... next time we'll go out alrite? i promise.. =) so anyway,arep didnt join,last2 minute he's dad asked him to drive him to the hospital.no biggies dude,uve got other important things.. in arham case..haha,a big case realy..he's got the chicken pox ! lol
so,it was again..bulat adi and me ! we went early,cs bulat went to kl with his dad,which means he's been there since like 7am.haha so then on the train me and adi was like super active for a normal human being on a early monday morning.haha there was this lil indian kid infront of us,quite cute.he was like bulat dow.haha he kept on staringgggggggg..haha alotta shit happnd,but one of the dumbest shit was when bulat txt me sayin 'kau ktne?' adi reply by txting suming bout 'celah bedah' hahhaha.. adi xtaw pun bedah was bulat's moms name/hahaha i could feel how pissed he was waitng at kl cntral and being dissed.hahahaha then we met at kl cntral... bla...bla...blaa... to lazy to write too detailed.haha
LATE BREAKFAST OR EARLY LUNCH ?
then we had an early lunch or was it a late breakfst?haha u know that mamak stall under the monorail,yeah? we had lunch there.haha there was two stalls there,beside each other,and they were tryna win us by getting us in their stall.. i couldnt care less,wtf ! mane yg dkat aku pegi je la kn.haha but then...that closest stall was like super shitty kut,the guy that took out order was quite funny yet annoying .haha his face came to close to us taw? 'makan ape adik?...' hahaha,he reminded me and bulat bout of those american football coaches.hahah i dont rely know how to explain it,but..there it is..haha then he said there wasnt any 'maggi goreng' me and adi was about to leave the stall,grabbing bulat beg already..then that guy came back.. saying 'nk megi goreng ke?' wtf ! ckp cm bdo la kau ! hahaha so then we ordered meggi goreng kosong,without sayur.haha FYI : im alergic to sayur ! but then the meal came.. WITH sayur..bdo jer ! fck jer... aaaa,was to nice to complain.haha ate it,but picked the veggies out frst.lol
then headed to t.square.. was gonna search for shirts,begs and watever.. we went in metrojaya,cs adi said there were some nice ties there.. uh...he's a fake ! there aint no nice tie's,there were all like big and fat ties.haha then we found this lil store selling those so called 'skinny ties's' for rm5 a piece.. ill take two ! =P then we went store by store..literally saying btw.. there was one store selling shirts,but none of them was nice..so,next ! then went in ed n edd..did i spell it rite?dunoo.. i wanted to get that tshirt i saw with leeya wen we went out,a pink floyd tshrt bai!haha but ,no sign of it..so there was there tshrts..bob dylan n sape yg tshirt ntah.. quite cool,me n adi tried it out..ouh!it was nice.. !hahha but then i said,we'll come back later wen i hav extra money after getting other important stuffs frst..if i had the money after...hahah
then adi wore a bag he bought from petaling street,i looked quite cool dow ! =P haha.. so decided to get one there.. we walked all the way from ts to petaling street.. then we found this stall selling an oakley beg,i asked how much.he said rm100 summing,couldnt remember how much exactly..but then bulat started bargaining..haha..and we tried threating him by leaving the stall.haha then he got to the lowest price maynneee...rm60 !haha but i said,'tngok tmpt lain dulu ar' blab...bla..blaa.. then i ended up buying the same beg as adi,but for rm5 lesser then he's.hahaha
then we went to cm,but stoped to get summin to eat at a mamak near cm.. only me n bulat ate,both of us had the same blended mango.hahaha then arep called me,asking me where we were.. he just got back from the hosptal,so we told him 'dtg ar sini dow !' but he had his fucking lame excuses.haha one of em... "aku xpndai ar sorang naik ktm." arrrgh ! FCK YOU MATE !hahaha
then we went in cm,bulat wanted to look at the painting at art booths there..
he was amazed..so was i dude ! the art and paintng was amazing.. and i wonder,why these talented artist cant make a living out of it..i mean.. bulat talked to one of the pakcik's there..he told us quite sad and heartbreaking stories,it affected bulat alot..hahahahaha
then we headed to dataran merdeka,hung out at the library..all bulats idea btw !haha but the library was peacefull,i liked it... lol i,myself..an tesl student,i need to develop that reading habbit dow.. agree? adi n bulat read those arcithecturing books. me? dun ask..i was quite blurr myself at that time.. one dumb rule bout the library was that,u had to wear shoes to get in.. quite dumb dont u tink.. well,its my opininion..
then we hung out at the dataran.. hahaha.. one dumb incident happnd.haha there was 3 white guys playin football behinf us,then one of the guys kicked the ball at us.. so bulat pun,ape lagi.. he kicked back,hard.hahaha the guy went 'yeheeiiii' hahahaa but then,haha.. bulats left selipar went tearing apart.hahaha bulat was like 'pantat kau white boy' !hahahaha
we had to walk all the way back to cm to get hi selipars.. poor him, he had to walk with one feet uncovered.. or he had to the selipars in order not to let the selipars away from his feet.haha
then we headed back times square,i wanted that tshrt.but then luckly,i found a store with quite nice shirts.. i bought one,but..hurm..found out that adi didnt like the shirt i got..er... biar ar ! fck off laa !hahaha so,i made up my mind to not get that tshrt cs i needed to buy myself some collared tshrts for uitm..
so then we headed home,but stopped byt midvalley.. i needed to buy some collared tshirts,and bulat wanted to take a look at those onitsuka sneaks.. i bougt my collared tshrt at padini,got 2 of em.. thenn... haha.. bulat said some stuff..mengejek ar... that made adi upset ! MERAJOK ! for real...hahahaha he was rely upset,he left but we followed him tho... lol then bulat said sorry,he was playing around.. lol we headed back home then..
on the train.. in front of us,their was one old lady..eating or chewing on sumting.. then to the left of her mouth,,that thing she chewed on was like coming out.. it was like errrr...white...errr...wet....errere... wait ! hahaha white? wet? wtf,that sounded quite funny alrite,some of u might undrstand wat it is im talking bout.hahahahah anyway,bulat was fucking dumb,talking too loud to me and adi bout that old lady,i laughed the hell out !hahahah then another old man to the left ,he was asleep.. with his ultra glowed out yellow shirt..with his super hot ,blut hotpants.haha his mouth was like moving to the left,moving upp.. aahhhm,i cant explain it.hhahaha ade lagi sorang ni,awek bajet hot !hahahahaha she was like big rite,but wearing too tight clothes.hahha with her bright pink tights.hahhaha oh Godd...help !
well ! there u got people =) the journey of 3 nilai dudes...
btw ! bnyk sngt aku left out dow ! like dari awal smpai balik aku n adi bahan bulat dow !haha for the frst time,kene kn die... hahahah BULAT HOTSTUFF ! BUDAK LKW !!!HAHHAHAHA
where the hell is pdil wei? thought he was gonna come pick me up.hangout at tbun.ape lagi kn,CounterStrike la !haha so i sent him a comment on myspace,oh yes.that dude was apparently online.haha then he replied, saying that he had trouble with transportation and all.. kete rosak kut.. so i said,all right.ill just go with bulat n meet u guys there.aite? haha
so the journey continues..........
around 6.30,we arrived at tbun. no sign of them dudes. called arham. he was still home,waiting for pdil. so xpe,kite tunggu la jap.. then my mistake, atika was there..we talked..bla bla bla.. haha,even she was surprised how i got in uitm.hahaha. well,rezeki aku laa kut =P
then we headed for al-salam.i ordered blended chocalate while bulat ordered blended mango.haha once in a while,u gotta act rich mayne ! ceh !haha then we saw my neigbor uncle tahir n auntie balqys(beckham n buntal's parents) and safwan(their lil brother) haha bulat was like a bit blurr.he wanted to sit next to their table.. i was like "nak gak duk situ an.haha" then he just realised who they were.haha.same old bulat.
the thing is.......... i was sitting facing their table,and i could of sworn that auntie n uncle was facing us and smiling.haha at times i was like smiling back,yet i didnt seem to get any reply back.like a nod or sumting.haha then they kept on lookin,smiling.haha i got a bit annoyed and malu gak la kn =P so i told bulat that they were looking,bulat turned back to look then he smiled at safwan.hahhaha then safwan acted like he didnt see ! haha then all of the sudden the table beside us was like "heyy !...." aaaarghhhh !hahha fucker ! malu giler siallll... we thought that they were looking at us,but...hahahah..celaka !!
me and bulat controlled the embarassmett for a couple of seconds,then we burst into laughter.hah we laughed so hard,so fucking loud maynneeee !hahah that was embarassing dow... haha
so after that,we went back home. as i step through the inside of the house. my phone rang "all the girls standing in the line for the bathroom,all the girls standing in th..." NERD : EVERYONE NOSE hahha it was arham..he said they just arrived tbun,where the fuck are we?hahaha i said, " baru smpai dow !" hahaha... i wanted to go back,but i aint got no transportationnnn... asking bulat to go back ? i gave it a secong thought.. nahhhh... its like im bosing him around.plus,maghrib.he probably couldnt go out at maghrib. even if my parents were home,they wouldnt let me out when its maghrib. hahha.lpas maghrib bole... so i wanted them.pdil or arham or whoever to pick me up.. but,no answer.hahhah xpe2 !
pdil,i undrstand..ur chicken,afraid of the KING OF COUNTER STRIKE rite here.haha (padahal im shitty,and he's like the god of war !)haha
I PROUDLY ANNOUNCE TO YOU PEOPLE WHO ARE READING AND FOLLOWING MY BLOG. ME AND THE SO FAMOUS LEEYA WHOM IVE ALWAYS BEEN TALKING AND MUMBLING ABOUT, WE ARE OFFICIALLY 14 MONTHS TOGETHER ! CEHHH... AND BABY,I KNOW UR READING THIS.. HEHEHE.I KNOW URE SMILING,CAUSE I AM =D
im always thirsty these days dow. its like every single minute i need a cold drink beside me dow. serious shit dow. thats how fcking hot malaysia is dow. siot dow. i just drank a bottle of cold ice lemon tea dow,then 2 cans of root beer dow. followed by a couple of sips of water dow. its cold drinks,its nice dow ! but the thirst is still there,dow ! shit dow, i tink its a different thirst im having dow ! A THIRST OF BLOOD ,dow !haha aku dh mengarut apa ni,dow ! if so,i dont remember getting bitten by a vampire dow ! hahaha... im bored dow ! im thirsty , and these 'nyamuks' are getting on my nerve dow ! you fuckin filthy lil creatureess ! errr,dow !! too many 'dows' eh ? hahaha.like i give a shit.....
you're the reason im the man i am now. you're the reason im strong. you're full of patience. you're full of love and laughter. i wouldn't trade u in for nothing you're want i want, and what i need. you complete me, you do. you make my life so colorful and challenging. i won your heart, now its the toughest challenge. keeping it. i want you the way you are now. i never want you to change,ok? you're beautiful. you're sweet. you're everything that nice. and neat. you're my everything. you're my world. loving you for more then a year now has been the most lovable gift ive ever been given. dont nobody dare take that away from me ! i trust you with all my heart. i love you the fullest. and you're my one and only.