imissunow

hm

i miss her now

so badly

wtf am i doing !

bdo aku ni !

aaahhhhh !

im sorry

im the weak one
there is nothing wrong with you
u have never done anything wrong
never
its me
the problem is me
im sorry it ended like this
i do still love u
and i mean it
just...
things are complicated now..
hope u understand
thanks for the memories

student tesl sial !

hello !

its my third day here,so far so good =)

well the bad thing is, wifi ade !tp lemah dowwwww..
but the good news, in my room there's thing broadband thingy that the seniors left,i guess.n its still useable !haha

quite busy rite now,no pics or watever yet..

tq.

my girl.

my girl.

Nur Liyana Amera Mazlan. the first girl that has ever given me so much love. appreciated me. trusted me. you've stolen my heart. and its forever yours.

since early last year,u have loved me non stop.
i myself,aint that perfect. im not that kind. not that adorable. not that hot.
everything thats nice, im simply not.
but you.
you're perfect.
the way you smile and the way u talk.
the way u giggle and the way walk.
the way ur mouth is when ur sad.
the way you hold me tight when ur feeling bad.
you. you. you.
theres just too much to say about you !
and non of it is negative.

baby,i really hope this sweet and unbreakable relationship will maintain and stay strong.
baby,i apologize for everything ive done to you.and i mean EVERYTHING.
i have to admit,im crying.
hmmmm...
i cant stop these tears from dripping out.
they just keep flowing out and out.
you to me are everything !
youre the stars that brighten my night.
you make me smile and laugh like im some kind of freak !
but inside,only i know that its your love thats making me feel so.....amazing.
ur amazing !

i sayang you dari mula.
till now.
and forever.

i called you,i cried.
i couldnt stop.
i didnt care how it made me sound like..
i dont !
i want you to know that this heart inside of me,is urs for the taking..

"jangan kau bimbang sayang,
dimana ku berada,
dengan siapa ku bersama,
jangan bimbang,
ku tetap kau yg punya."

those lyrics are just quite simple to get rite?
syg,trust me ok =)
like i trust you..

"i dont wanna close my eyes,
i dont wanna fall asleep,
cause i miss you baby,
and i dont wanna miss a thing."

those are the lyrics which tell you how i feel rite now.
i dont wanna sleep. i dont wanna go.
i just wanna stay here,the way i am rite now.home.
i just wanna be with u laa !
thats it !
with u !

my blood

its been 18 years now. you guys have given everything to me. provided me everything. from food to shelter. from shelter to knowledge. from knowledge to LOVE. and it goes on and on without stopping. since i was a a little kid growing up,u guys have shown me n given me so much love. you told me i was the greatest there is. u guys told me how clever i am even though im not. u guys told me how adorable i looked when i was growing up. how easy it was raising me. i just..aaaaaaaaa... dont know how to say it in words. but i really appreciate everything ive been given. now,its my time to live on my own. i hope you all will trust me and support me =) ok? mama, ur the best mom there is. ur everything a son could ever dream of having. uve given me so much support from the beginning. u told me never to give up. u told me u love me,and i believe you. cause i do to.. i love you. please forgive me for everything ive done. ive caused u a lot of trouble. ive done so many things to hurt you,yet..uve always stayed by my side. thanks mama. i swear ill take care of myself. ill pray for you,ill try to be a better person. dont you worry ok? im always here.always for you. u know ive always have your back in anything. nobody can ever replace u,i swear to God that i really LOVE YOU ! abah, faris minta maaf. i know even though u have been strict to me since i was young,deep inside of you,i know that u love me. that u love this family so much. ur trying so hard to support this family. u being strict have always been the main reason why i am,the person i am now. why im strong inside.mentally and physically. thank you. afiq and wahida, korang jgn nakal ! korang help mama n abah around the house when im not around.ok? study ! jgn buat mama n abah mara taw? dont be stubborn like i am !dont !

I LOVE YOU LA ADIK2 !

The Fliibertigibbet's

INTRO

wondering what the hell ' The Flibbertigibbet's ' are ?
well, a 'flibbertigibbet' is a silly, gossipy person. got that from the dictionary.
correct me if im wrong.
so basically that is a quite big word yet almost accurate in letting you know who we are =)


so,right here, i would like to say a couple of things before i leave for uitm,which is tomorrow.
im sorry for being such a dick,bastard,celaka,fucker,buto..hhahahaha.or watever it is i am.
im sorry dudes =)
forgive me,and all my mistakes.
all that ive done,is truly who i am.
so if its bad or good,its still who i am.
being with you all for the last 2 and a half years was a BOMB !
serious shit..i didnt ever think i would be such an active person like who i am now.
i proudly say i aint matured yet ! hahaha
and so are u guys doww..
theres too much sweet n bitter memories between us.
the fights we fought. how we backed each other up no matter what.
too much.

ADI

take care of yourself aite. try NOT to be so sad all the time. and i mean it !
ALL THE TIME !
cheer up brotha !
uve still got years ahead of u,dont be regretfull of anyting.
u wanna join OIAM ? haha.go for it !
u win,u get a money.its split between us.aite?haha
you a lot of my secrets,thats hot important and trustfull i am towards you..
dont let no body push u around,ur tougher then u look.
dont let no body stand in ur way,fite back..

btw,aku impressed and proud of you dow.cekap bwk manual dh.haha

AREP

si telinga capang ! si cur....err....nothing ! aint suppose to say it in public.
yall know what i mean rite?hahaha
u gotta stay the way you are now. i gotta admit something dow..
even tho ive known u quite lonnggg...
ur still quite mysterious to me,its hard to say why.but you are.haha
we've been a team since the day we started school. then neighbors.
to team mates.haha
we've been through a lot !
oh yeah,take care of my xmen dvd's maynee ! ill want em back when i get home.haha
keep collecting those psp games,we still gotta trade each other for games.

ARHAM

my 'dark side' my friend.haha.
my heavy metal, death metal friend ! haaha
thanks a lot for everything. all the rides to school,to work.
counter strike-ing together.haha
its been a blast !
eventhough aku still bengang cs kau xd kuar ngan aku lngsng g kl ke apeeee.haha

tp still,uve made up by hanging wit me at the bistro,cc,karaoke and ftsal.haha

FAREK

my nigger ! haha
hows life dude? hows matrix?
missing us brothers back in nilai?
cs we sure are...haha
look im going as well,further then u !haha
but that dont mean we gotta break this frenship we got,we still meet up =)
bistro,wathing football.haha
btw,sorry for causing you lotta trouble,ejek2 kau..seriously sorry..
i wanna stop,but 'that' kid keep tempting me in for more ! haha
u know who? =P
so keep in touch,n keep that love of yours horny wei !hahaha
xdee aaaa .saje jeee.haha
sorry again

FIKRI

ok,the famous and legendary Fikri.haha
the one and only 'HOTSTUFF' in the groupp.haha
the clown that makes us laugh all the time...
the one that brightens up everyones day..
oh,no2..u bright up our day,but not the guy ur teasing and dissing.haha
u deserve to be called 'King Flibbertigibbet' hahahahaha
thanks for everything wei,aku syg gile kt kau !
after this i aint gonna bother u.haha
u can go jog or jerk off anytime now !
theres no 'zet' to come buzzing of ur house anymore.haha
you brotha,no matter how 'Hot' you,please im begging you !
dont turn ur back on me,on us !
ur too valuable to be lost.same goes to all of yall !
aite?
dont got no where dude.stay with us.

NASHA

even tho at the last minute we got close,uve still been a lot of fun to be with dow.serious shit !
even though kau kene bahan ngan bulat bnyk,kau still stayed strong and tough !
i respect ya ! haha
next time,we'll hangout again.jgn x ikut wei !
kau penting !
in a lotttt of ways.hahahha

btw.sorry for the nigger slang that i write in.eh?
dh terbiasa dow=)

the journey to....

to where ?

alotta places actually. haha.
u'll find out by reading this entry..aite?

here we go.....

THE PLAN

we planned on sunday to go out,since its my last week as an unemployed,jobless yet with a quite bright future i can say . haha
bulat wanted to go to the library. the library next to Dataran Merdeka. i dont remember the formal name for it tho.sorry.haha
then i wanted to go shop some stuff for uitm. bag,shirts etc.
but i actually planned to go shop for these things with Leeya,but then..she's got mid year exams..night tuitions...
so..babe,sorry sngt2..i know how terribly sad u are..i know,im super duper sorry sayangg....
next time we'll go out alrite? i promise.. =)
so anyway,arep didnt join,last2 minute he's dad asked him to drive him to the hospital.no biggies dude,uve got other important things..
in arham case..haha,a big case realy..he's got the chicken pox ! lol

OTW

so,it was again..bulat adi and me !
we went early,cs bulat went to kl with his dad,which means he's been there since like 7am.haha
so then on the train me and adi was like super active for a normal human being on a early monday morning.haha
there was this lil indian kid infront of us,quite cute.he was like bulat dow.haha
he kept on staringgggggggg..haha
alotta shit happnd,but one of the dumbest shit was when bulat txt me sayin 'kau ktne?'
adi reply by txting suming bout 'celah bedah' hahhaha..
adi xtaw pun bedah was bulat's moms name/hahaha
i could feel how pissed he was waitng at kl cntral and being dissed.hahahaha
then we met at kl cntral...
bla...bla...blaa...
to lazy to write too detailed.haha

LATE BREAKFAST OR EARLY LUNCH ?

then we had an early lunch or was it a late breakfst?haha
u know that mamak stall under the monorail,yeah?
we had lunch there.haha
there was two stalls there,beside each other,and they were tryna win us by getting us in their stall..
i couldnt care less,wtf ! mane yg dkat aku pegi je la kn.haha
but then...that closest stall was like super shitty kut,the guy that took out order was quite funny yet annoying .haha
his face came to close to us taw? 'makan ape adik?...'
hahaha,he reminded me and bulat bout of those american football coaches.hahah
i dont rely know how to explain it,but..there it is..haha
then he said there wasnt any 'maggi goreng' me and adi was about to leave the stall,grabbing bulat beg already..then that guy came back..
saying 'nk megi goreng ke?'
wtf ! ckp cm bdo la kau ! hahaha
so then we ordered meggi goreng kosong,without sayur.haha
FYI : im alergic to sayur !
but then the meal came..
WITH sayur..bdo jer ! fck jer...
aaaa,was to nice to complain.haha
ate it,but picked the veggies out frst.lol

TIMES SQUARE

then headed to t.square..
was gonna search for shirts,begs and watever..
we went in metrojaya,cs adi said there were some nice ties there..
uh...he's a fake ! there aint no nice tie's,there were all like big and fat ties.haha
then we found this lil store selling those so called 'skinny ties's' for rm5 a piece..
ill take two ! =P
then we went store by store..literally saying btw..
there was one store selling shirts,but none of them was nice..so,next !
then went in ed n edd..did i spell it rite?dunoo..
i wanted to get that tshirt i saw with leeya wen we went out,a pink floyd tshrt bai!haha
but ,no sign of it..so there was there tshrts..bob dylan n sape yg tshirt ntah..
quite cool,me n adi tried it out..ouh!it was nice.. !hahha
but then i said,we'll come back later wen i hav extra money after getting other important stuffs frst..if i had the money after...hahah

PETALING STREET

then adi wore a bag he bought from petaling street,i looked quite cool dow ! =P
haha..
so decided to get one there..
we walked all the way from ts to petaling street..
then we found this stall selling an oakley beg,i asked how much.he said rm100 summing,couldnt remember how much exactly..but then bulat started bargaining..haha..and we tried threating him by leaving the stall.haha
then he got to the lowest price maynneee...rm60 !haha
but i said,'tngok tmpt lain dulu ar'
blab...bla..blaa..
then i ended up buying the same beg as adi,but for rm5 lesser then he's.hahaha

CENTRAL MARKET

then we went to cm,but stoped to get summin to eat at a mamak near cm..
only me n bulat ate,both of us had the same blended mango.hahaha
then arep called me,asking me where we were..
he just got back from the hosptal,so we told him 'dtg ar sini dow !'
but he had his fucking lame excuses.haha
one of em...
"aku xpndai ar sorang naik ktm."
arrrgh ! FCK YOU MATE !hahaha

then we went in cm,bulat wanted to look at the painting at art booths there..

he was amazed..so was i dude !
the art and paintng was amazing..
and i wonder,why these talented artist cant make a living out of it..i mean..
bulat talked to one of the pakcik's there..he told us quite sad and heartbreaking stories,it affected bulat alot..hahahahaha

LIBRARY

then we headed to dataran merdeka,hung out at the library..all bulats idea btw !haha
but the library was peacefull,i liked it...
lol
i,myself..an tesl student,i need to develop that reading habbit dow..
agree?
adi n bulat read those arcithecturing books.
me? dun ask..i was quite blurr myself at that time..
one dumb rule bout the library was that,u had to wear shoes to get in..
quite dumb dont u tink..
well,its my opininion..

DATARAN MERDEKA

then we hung out at the dataran..
hahaha..
one dumb incident happnd.haha
there was 3 white guys playin football behinf us,then one of the guys kicked the ball at us..
so bulat pun,ape lagi..
he kicked back,hard.hahaha
the guy went 'yeheeiiii' hahahaa
but then,haha..
bulats left selipar went tearing apart.hahaha
bulat was like 'pantat kau white boy' !hahahaha

CENTRAL MARKET.AGAIN.

we had to walk all the way back to cm to get hi selipars..
poor him, he had to walk with one feet uncovered..
or he had to the selipars in order not to let the selipars away from his feet.haha

TIMES SQUARE.AGAIN.

then we headed back times square,i wanted that tshrt.but then luckly,i found a store with quite nice shirts..
i bought one,but..hurm..found out that adi didnt like the shirt i got..er...
biar ar ! fck off laa !hahaha
so,i made up my mind to not get that tshrt cs i needed to buy myself some collared tshrts for uitm..

MIDVALLEY

so then we headed home,but stopped byt midvalley..
i needed to buy some collared tshirts,and bulat wanted to take a look at those onitsuka sneaks..
i bougt my collared tshrt at padini,got 2 of em..
thenn...
haha..
bulat said some stuff..mengejek ar...
that made adi upset ! MERAJOK !
for real...hahahaha
he was rely upset,he left but we followed him tho...
lol
then bulat said sorry,he was playing around..
lol
we headed back home then..

OTW.HOME.

on the train..
in front of us,their was one old lady..eating or chewing on sumting..
then to the left of her mouth,,that thing she chewed on was like coming out..
it was like errrr...white...errr...wet....errere...
wait ! hahaha
white? wet?
wtf,that sounded quite funny alrite,some of u might undrstand wat it is im talking bout.hahahahah
anyway,bulat was fucking dumb,talking too loud to me and adi bout that old lady,i laughed the hell out !hahahah
then another old man to the left ,he was asleep..
with his ultra glowed out yellow shirt..with his super hot ,blut hotpants.haha
his mouth was like moving to the left,moving upp..
aahhhm,i cant explain it.hhahaha
ade lagi sorang ni,awek bajet hot !hahahahaha
she was like big rite,but wearing too tight clothes.hahha
with her bright pink tights.hahhaha
oh Godd...help !




well ! there u got people =)
the journey of 3 nilai dudes...

btw ! bnyk sngt aku left out dow !
like dari awal smpai balik aku n adi bahan bulat dow !haha
for the frst time,kene kn die...
hahahah
BULAT HOTSTUFF ! BUDAK LKW !!!HAHHAHAHA

pics can be viewed on my myspace profile.

noe's tagg

What is your nickname?

zet.tu jee

Your mum calls you by this name...

faris azizi

You are closer to your mother or father?

mom

Your siblings calls you by this name...

abg,oi,babi !


You have someone special (bf/gf) in your heart.(Y/N)

yeshhh !


List down 3 of your good behaviours.

i.baca bismillah 21 kali before tidur.

ii. dngr ckp mama.

iii. ape lagi....haha


List down 3 of your bad behaviours.

i. i make my parents sad too much

ii. make her sad as well

iii. aku jahat !


What is your favourite past times? Give 2.

i. breaking the ceiling of the class 4sn on 2007.haha.

ii. panjat bumbung skolah smkts !haha



Your favourite colours are? Give 5.

i. hitam

ii. putih

iii. purple

iv. grey

v. brown



Song of your life is?

aslyn - thats when i love you.bnyk lagi kut ! bnyk !


Name one person you admire the most.

leeyaa laa !and my mom !

Name one of your ex (nickname is allowed)

one of my ex ? Sophie Colmer.wuhuuu.hahaha



The worst word/phrase cursed by you.

"you one balled bastard ! "



Who is the one you miss the most now?

Leeya !


Who is the one who ignores you most of the time?

boron !haha


Who is the one who always keep you company?

Leeyaa !


Name the model of your phone.

k750i and nokia ape ntah.haha


Name the model of your laptop.

fuyoo ! haha..VAIO VGN-NS25G haha



Name one person you hate the most.

ermm....


Name the person you love the most.

Nur Liyana Amera Mazlan

The situation you hate the most.

there was once. arep taw ! haha.ingt x arep?haha


One word describing yourself.

Dork


What are you thinking now?

nk berak !


Classifies your friends as follows.

clever : asya

naughty : leeya

hardworking : farik

funny : bulat

sweet : leeya

unpredictable : adi

mysterious : tony mafia.haha

kind : leeya

caring : leeya

handsome : arep ! padahal nk ckp aku.haha

beautiful : leeya

cute : leeya

wild : owwh.leeyaa ! =P haha

big : haha.bulat?haha

small : me


If you're asked to shout, what will it be?

maaa ! jom anta faris KTM!

tagg for ?

frankie foo !
adiba diba !
kak yang !
ashraf !
arep !
bulat !
fara !
farik !

Falling Slowly

Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova - Falling Slowly

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You'll make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

i dedicate this song firstly to you babe =D

and also to any other loving couples.
or anyone that has any feelings of love to another person.
enjoy.


song taken from the movie, Once.

p/s : listen to the song playing on my blog right now.these are the lyrics to it. goodnight.

kemaluan besar ! lol =P

5.30 !

where the hell is pdil wei? thought he was gonna come pick me up.hangout at tbun.ape lagi kn,CounterStrike la !haha
so i sent him a comment on myspace,oh yes.that dude was apparently online.haha
then he replied, saying that he had trouble with transportation and all..
kete rosak kut..
so i said,all right.ill just go with bulat n meet u guys there.aite? haha

so the journey continues..........

around 6.30,we arrived at tbun. no sign of them dudes. called arham. he was still home,waiting for pdil. so xpe,kite tunggu la jap..
then my mistake, atika was there..we talked..bla bla bla..
haha,even she was surprised how i got in uitm.hahaha.
well,rezeki aku laa kut =P

then we headed for al-salam.i ordered blended chocalate while bulat ordered blended mango.haha
once in a while,u gotta act rich mayne ! ceh !haha
then we saw my neigbor uncle tahir n auntie balqys(beckham n buntal's parents) and safwan(their lil brother) haha
bulat was like a bit blurr.he wanted to sit next to their table..
i was like "nak gak duk situ an.haha"
then he just realised who they were.haha.same old bulat.

the thing is..........
i was sitting facing their table,and i could of sworn that auntie n uncle was facing us and smiling.haha
at times i was like smiling back,yet i didnt seem to get any reply back.like a nod or sumting.haha
then they kept on lookin,smiling.haha
i got a bit annoyed and malu gak la kn =P
so i told bulat that they were looking,bulat turned back to look then he smiled at safwan.hahhaha
then safwan acted like he didnt see ! haha
then all of the sudden the table beside us was like "heyy !...."
aaaarghhhh !hahha
fucker !
malu giler siallll...
we thought that they were looking at us,but...hahahah..celaka !!

me and bulat controlled the embarassmett for a couple of seconds,then we burst into laughter.hah
we laughed so hard,so fucking loud maynneeee !hahah
that was embarassing dow...
haha

so after that,we went back home.
as i step through the inside of the house.
my phone rang " all the girls standing in the line for the bathroom,all the girls standing in th..."
NERD : EVERYONE NOSE
hahha
it was arham..he said they just arrived tbun,where the fuck are we?hahaha
i said, " baru smpai dow !"
hahaha...
i wanted to go back,but i aint got no transportationnnn...
asking bulat to go back ?
i gave it a secong thought..
nahhhh...
its like im bosing him around.plus,maghrib.he probably couldnt go out at maghrib.
even if my parents were home,they wouldnt let me out when its maghrib.
hahha.lpas maghrib bole...
so i wanted them.pdil or arham or whoever to pick me up..
but,no answer.hahhah
xpe2 !

pdil,i undrstand..ur chicken,afraid of the KING OF COUNTER STRIKE rite here.haha
(padahal im shitty,and he's like the god of war !)haha



the end.

nothing much

GUNS DONT KILL PEOPLE,
PEOPLE KILL PEOPLE.

14 Months Together

I PROUDLY ANNOUNCE TO YOU PEOPLE WHO ARE READING AND FOLLOWING MY BLOG.
ME AND THE SO FAMOUS LEEYA WHOM IVE ALWAYS BEEN TALKING AND MUMBLING ABOUT,
WE ARE OFFICIALLY 14 MONTHS TOGETHER !
CEHHH...
AND BABY,I KNOW UR READING THIS..
HEHEHE.I KNOW URE SMILING,CAUSE I AM =D

I LOVE YOU NUR LIYANA AMERA MAZLAN

a thirst for blood ? dow ?

im always thirsty these days dow. its like every single minute i need a cold drink beside me dow.
serious shit dow. thats how fcking hot malaysia is dow.
siot dow.
i just drank a bottle of cold ice lemon tea dow,then 2 cans of root beer dow.
followed by a couple of sips of water dow.
its cold drinks,its nice dow !
but the thirst is still there,dow !
shit dow, i tink its a different thirst im having dow !
A THIRST OF BLOOD ,dow !haha
aku dh mengarut apa ni,dow !
if so,i dont remember getting bitten by a vampire dow !
hahaha...
im bored dow !
im thirsty , and these 'nyamuks' are getting on my nerve dow !
you fuckin filthy lil creatureess ! errr,dow !!
too many 'dows' eh ? hahaha.like i give a shit.....

who else got in UITM MELAKA

WHO ELSE GOT IN UITM MELAKA?????

my one and only

you're the reason im the man i am now.
you're the reason im strong.
you're full of patience.
you're full of love and laughter.
i wouldn't trade u in for nothing
you're want i want, and what i need.
you complete me, you do.
you make my life so colorful and challenging.
i won your heart, now its the toughest challenge.
keeping it.
i want you the way you are now.
i never want you to change,ok?
you're beautiful.
you're sweet.
you're everything that nice.
and neat.
you're my everything.
you're my world.
loving you for more then a year now has been the most lovable gift ive ever been given.
dont nobody dare take that away from me !
i trust you with all my heart.
i love you the fullest.
and you're my one and only.

ILOVEYOU

farek.

dude.
sorry aku xsempat nak jumpe kau this saturday,ajak lepak kn? sorry.
i gotta head back penang dow,kampung jap !

so the best of luck to you.
we'll meet up on holidays bro,no worries,ur juz around the corner,ur still in negeri sembilan.haha
aint tat far..

one thing i dont realy get is,apehal ajak lepak ngan kite xjoin dow?
haha,mayb i do know a couple of reasons why.
yeah,i get it =P

btw,HELMET AKU MANE BAI !hahaha
bring it back ASAP la babi !
hahaha

gudluck brotha .
may the force be with you.

UPU results.

not to be proud or what la kn, but..i got in !

all right, to me, its quite a big deal. cause tngok la results aku,bukan gempak pun . hancur kut.
tapi, alhamdullilah i got accepted in uitm,tesl.

sekian.tq